At times I remember that I need.
At times I don't.
At times I remember that I want.
But for the most I forget.
But today is an exception
And I'll try to make it last.
I'll make it last.
I don't need to be a psychic
So long as I can see what's in your mind.
Do you see what I see?xD
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Monday, May 24, 2010
I won't forget.
At the crossroads in life,everyone says to themselves that they won't forget the important people they part with in life.Save yourself and your friends a teary-eyed farewell,you say.Save the embarrassment,save the tears,save the slushy emotions for another day.That's what you say.
But after a while,you realize that a person can only have this many important things in life.It's not that we give up things that are important to us as we go along,we give up their importance to us.It's like giving up a puppy for adoption.
Day 1:Puppy arrives.Puppy is named Stitch!YAY!
Day 2-15:You spend two whole weeks with Stitch.Stitch tears up a bear,which you will keep with you forever to remind you of Stitch.Stitch teaches you some very important lessons in life blah blah blah.BUT...there's always a but:
Day 16:Stitch has to go tomorrow.Scream,shout,anything he has to go.=( T.T >.< gone.
So..what's the best option to most people?Easy.They say to themselves "I'm just giving a dog away." Either after giving the dog away (SUCKERS) or before( EVEN BIGGER SUCKERS).
The name of the dog is how important it is because it represents how personal it is to you.
The dog is something you have to give up.
Do you get it?
I wish humans had more space for feeling and emotion.=(
But after a while,you realize that a person can only have this many important things in life.It's not that we give up things that are important to us as we go along,we give up their importance to us.It's like giving up a puppy for adoption.
Day 1:Puppy arrives.Puppy is named Stitch!YAY!
Day 2-15:You spend two whole weeks with Stitch.Stitch tears up a bear,which you will keep with you forever to remind you of Stitch.Stitch teaches you some very important lessons in life blah blah blah.BUT...there's always a but:
Day 16:Stitch has to go tomorrow.Scream,shout,anything he has to go.=( T.T >.< gone.
So..what's the best option to most people?Easy.They say to themselves "I'm just giving a dog away." Either after giving the dog away (SUCKERS) or before( EVEN BIGGER SUCKERS).
The name of the dog is how important it is because it represents how personal it is to you.
The dog is something you have to give up.
Do you get it?
I wish humans had more space for feeling and emotion.=(
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Sunday, March 7, 2010
I'm severely distracted.What happens when you lose purpose is worse than when you lose motivation.So you don't have it so bad yet haha.Keep the purpose even if the motivation goes away.It'll come back.
I need a place to rest my mind.I need a place to think a lot of things through without losing touch with the real world.I need a place where I can find some inspiration.I need a place to play the piano for half the day without having to consider the plight of my listeners.I need a place where time can stop when someone smiles.I need a place where time flows backwards and forwards in an erratic manner.Somewhere where my confused mind will fit in,a universe just as confused.Somewhere where I can look into the surface of the water and see anything I want to see.Somewhere where eating too much cheesecake doesn't make you feel like puking.Somewhere I can wake up and believe that today is gonna be a great day.
Yay.I don't feel so confused now.HAHA.
I need a place to rest my mind.I need a place to think a lot of things through without losing touch with the real world.I need a place where I can find some inspiration.I need a place to play the piano for half the day without having to consider the plight of my listeners.I need a place where time can stop when someone smiles.I need a place where time flows backwards and forwards in an erratic manner.Somewhere where my confused mind will fit in,a universe just as confused.Somewhere where I can look into the surface of the water and see anything I want to see.Somewhere where eating too much cheesecake doesn't make you feel like puking.Somewhere I can wake up and believe that today is gonna be a great day.
Yay.I don't feel so confused now.HAHA.
Friday, March 5, 2010
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Today was great.Went for a tourney(frisbee) with Ninos and it was great lah seriously.Haha.They provided great food this time at UKM.Remember last year?It was salted fish and rice.And THAT WAS ALL.OH MY GOSH LAH.But this year there were TWO meals in fact.First a box of meehoon.Meehoon tastes really special.Nothing else has the same type of saltiness haha.And after that,just a few hours later we got surprised with a box of....CHICKEN RICE.WHOAH big improvement.Water was given out in such great amounts by the organizers and Mr. Kok Choon...oops Dr. Cheah that it was almost like free flow.Thanks.xD.And sorry for drinking too much.
Foof.
One thing though,at the beginning everyone was pretty much looking down on the tourney.The feeling just got more after the first round of the tourney,in which we beat wildcats 4-1.Somehow even though there's not many strong teams in the tourney I feel like its a bit wrong to do that,cause I think there's a link between looking down on people and being intimidated by people.The more you look down on people,the more intimidatable you are by stronger people.Haha.Give me time to prove this theory.
The tourney went pretty well on the whole.I think everyone gave a lot to it,and the format of the competition basically ensured this.15 mins to play,with 5 mins for a last point.Oof.Means everyone just played at max for almost every point.Actually I still don't get it but whatever.Weird format.5 ppl to play in a super small field that made it a must to cut.or run back to the person throwing in other words.I think I called a few fouls that made some people upset but they do make sense.And the lousy arrangement of the field made it impossible to see at a glance whether someone was in or out,which is pretty....frustrating.
Kwan Seng probably became the MVP for this tourney I think.From our team anyway.Haha.Dive dive dive...he's going to catch up with darren soon.haha.Crazy lah.But he's seriously improving very fast.Scored quite a bit also.
Tossed around quite a bit in between the matches,there was quite a bit of time after the first match.Quite a LOT.3 hours man.Lol.First match around 9,second was around 12/12.30 can't remember haha.surprisingly,no one used the time to recover the energy they lost yesterday during the "meeting" yesterday.Haha.
And then around 4.30 darren had to start an argument with Mart about the teams we were facing for the semis.Don't think that should happen,it actually spoils the mood and.......takes away precious time we coulda used to warm up.Luckily it was raining,bought us quite a bit of time to rest..and argue.==Also Murali was playing for 2 teams,somehow no one seemed to complain.
Oh and damn.Lots of people got injured in the tourney.Two twisted legs,i think ankles.chien hoong ,and jian shen in his heroic effort to try and stop mart from scoring the decider in the match against KBU.Lost 4-3 anyway.He got a personal cheer though.HAha."ThreecheersforthreecheersforthreecheersforJianShen!"And Siang Sheng was also bai keok-ing with me.=/No nice cuts today just fake and runs thanks to that.
We got third in the end.Okay lah,considering we had a cacat team of 8 by the end of the day.with kwan seng disabled by stomach aches and jian shen and chien hoong be-cacated by sprains.
And after that met Shen and Si jun in Amcorp with some friends after watching people throw gam into the lake for a while.Whoah for the first time in my life I know that guys throw bananas."Throw a pisang tanduk,write on it(its as long as this) and your phone number."Good idea,got from Mr. Andrew haha.
Chap Goh Meh was pretty fulfiling,all in all.Makes up for the upsets during chinese new year.=)
And hey.The next few years aren't leaps.WHOOHOO!you know why?because then,kimberley has less one day before she comes back here.Childish,but haha.Something to be happy about,for two years?why not.xD
Foof.
One thing though,at the beginning everyone was pretty much looking down on the tourney.The feeling just got more after the first round of the tourney,in which we beat wildcats 4-1.Somehow even though there's not many strong teams in the tourney I feel like its a bit wrong to do that,cause I think there's a link between looking down on people and being intimidated by people.The more you look down on people,the more intimidatable you are by stronger people.Haha.Give me time to prove this theory.
The tourney went pretty well on the whole.I think everyone gave a lot to it,and the format of the competition basically ensured this.15 mins to play,with 5 mins for a last point.Oof.Means everyone just played at max for almost every point.Actually I still don't get it but whatever.Weird format.5 ppl to play in a super small field that made it a must to cut.or run back to the person throwing in other words.I think I called a few fouls that made some people upset but they do make sense.And the lousy arrangement of the field made it impossible to see at a glance whether someone was in or out,which is pretty....frustrating.
Kwan Seng probably became the MVP for this tourney I think.From our team anyway.Haha.Dive dive dive...he's going to catch up with darren soon.haha.Crazy lah.But he's seriously improving very fast.Scored quite a bit also.
Tossed around quite a bit in between the matches,there was quite a bit of time after the first match.Quite a LOT.3 hours man.Lol.First match around 9,second was around 12/12.30 can't remember haha.surprisingly,no one used the time to recover the energy they lost yesterday during the "meeting" yesterday.Haha.
And then around 4.30 darren had to start an argument with Mart about the teams we were facing for the semis.Don't think that should happen,it actually spoils the mood and.......takes away precious time we coulda used to warm up.Luckily it was raining,bought us quite a bit of time to rest..and argue.==Also Murali was playing for 2 teams,somehow no one seemed to complain.
Oh and damn.Lots of people got injured in the tourney.Two twisted legs,i think ankles.chien hoong ,and jian shen in his heroic effort to try and stop mart from scoring the decider in the match against KBU.Lost 4-3 anyway.He got a personal cheer though.HAha."ThreecheersforthreecheersforthreecheersforJianShen!"And Siang Sheng was also bai keok-ing with me.=/No nice cuts today just fake and runs thanks to that.
We got third in the end.Okay lah,considering we had a cacat team of 8 by the end of the day.with kwan seng disabled by stomach aches and jian shen and chien hoong be-cacated by sprains.
And after that met Shen and Si jun in Amcorp with some friends after watching people throw gam into the lake for a while.Whoah for the first time in my life I know that guys throw bananas."Throw a pisang tanduk,write on it(its as long as this) and your phone number."Good idea,got from Mr. Andrew haha.
Chap Goh Meh was pretty fulfiling,all in all.Makes up for the upsets during chinese new year.=)
And hey.The next few years aren't leaps.WHOOHOO!you know why?because then,kimberley has less one day before she comes back here.Childish,but haha.Something to be happy about,for two years?why not.xD
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Impress or express?
A simple question posed to anyone who's reading this,to illustrate the theme of this post.
When you yumcha with friends,how much of your conversation is composed of
(a)Talking about how you actually feel about stuff
and
how much of it is composed of
(b)Topics that are meant to intrigue the listener,leaving a strong impression but not really conveying your feelings on the matter?
Put even more simply,would you rather talk about the bad breakup you had and tell everyone how you really feel or would you rather talk about how "impressed" you are at the bad behaviour of the jerk you broke up with?
Or is something inhibiting you from expressing your emotions?Is it the fact that after living to IMPRESS others for so long,you even want to impress yourself and you can't even express to yourself your feelings about the breakup,the feelings being overshadowed by your wish to be special?To be special,by being someone who dated the "worst jerk on earth"?Is that why you only talk about how bad he/she was to most of the world?
Is IMPRESSION a way of AVOIDING EXPRESSION?
To me,yes it is.
Another question:Who are we really trying to impress?Who are we trying to convince with all our might that we are SPECIAL people?Why are we afraid of being NORMAL?Okay thats quite a few questions but never mind.I can sum them up in one question:Why must we be SPECIAL?
Is it because being special is a sort of Season Pass that,in our minds, entitles us to have everything we want?Is it because if we're not special,no one will turn their heads our way?Is it because we need to convince ourselves that we can be winners in our own way,by not following the norms and competing with everyone else on the NORMAL path?
Will we deserve a beautiful girlfriend if we're special?Will we ensure our success for the next 15 years of our life?Will we?Will we?
The last question,think about this yourself.Which one opens up the door to being special?
Is it really the one you think?My opinion should be clear on this one.=)Look at the buttons next to the door if you still don't know.
A simple question posed to anyone who's reading this,to illustrate the theme of this post.
When you yumcha with friends,how much of your conversation is composed of
(a)Talking about how you actually feel about stuff
and
how much of it is composed of
(b)Topics that are meant to intrigue the listener,leaving a strong impression but not really conveying your feelings on the matter?
Put even more simply,would you rather talk about the bad breakup you had and tell everyone how you really feel or would you rather talk about how "impressed" you are at the bad behaviour of the jerk you broke up with?
Or is something inhibiting you from expressing your emotions?Is it the fact that after living to IMPRESS others for so long,you even want to impress yourself and you can't even express to yourself your feelings about the breakup,the feelings being overshadowed by your wish to be special?To be special,by being someone who dated the "worst jerk on earth"?Is that why you only talk about how bad he/she was to most of the world?
Is IMPRESSION a way of AVOIDING EXPRESSION?
To me,yes it is.
Another question:Who are we really trying to impress?Who are we trying to convince with all our might that we are SPECIAL people?Why are we afraid of being NORMAL?Okay thats quite a few questions but never mind.I can sum them up in one question:Why must we be SPECIAL?
Is it because being special is a sort of Season Pass that,in our minds, entitles us to have everything we want?Is it because if we're not special,no one will turn their heads our way?Is it because we need to convince ourselves that we can be winners in our own way,by not following the norms and competing with everyone else on the NORMAL path?
Will we deserve a beautiful girlfriend if we're special?Will we ensure our success for the next 15 years of our life?Will we?Will we?
The last question,think about this yourself.Which one opens up the door to being special?
Is it really the one you think?My opinion should be clear on this one.=)Look at the buttons next to the door if you still don't know.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Dedication:KW
To Kimberley Wong:
I don't share that much of myself
So thanks for taking everything you can when I do
Whether it's damn COLD
Or too HOT until it makes you uncomfortable
Or too LAME until you can't walk anymore
Thanks for listening to me
Taking in all the dumb stuff
And my weird theories
And my seemingly surreal ideas that ...are so OUT that they're like fiction
Even when there's nothing to say.
Thanks for sharing
Even when there's nothing much to say
And it seems like two ppl are just talking through infrared
Or bluetooth.
Haha.
I won't forget anything.
This
With the rest of the stuff
We've shared
Is an honest piece of myself.
Remember MUO
Remember staying back at school asking me homework
Remember me telling you that I never really do homework
Remember me emo-ing
Complaints
"Huh?"
Worrying over Australia
FrisbeepianostudiesrentasdesaGAPLUIsampat
So Kim,
don't forget.
come back n beat me in FRISBEE.
Come back with a lengzai BF haha
And don't forget to come back with a preseent for me okay?
Enjoy life there
This sounds so cliche.
Wait
Let me think of something cool.
@__@
MM..
Here goes.
Live so crazy it'd put a rockstar on edge,
Love hard 'cause it seems like the end of this age
And laugh so loud ...that we all can hear you from Malaysia.HAHA.
Goodluckhavefunremembertomissmeandihopeyoulikethepresent.=)
-HOCK EU-
I don't share that much of myself
So thanks for taking everything you can when I do
Whether it's damn COLD
Or too HOT until it makes you uncomfortable
Or too LAME until you can't walk anymore
Thanks for listening to me
Taking in all the dumb stuff
And my weird theories
And my seemingly surreal ideas that ...are so OUT that they're like fiction
Even when there's nothing to say.
Thanks for sharing
Even when there's nothing much to say
And it seems like two ppl are just talking through infrared
Or bluetooth.
Haha.
I won't forget anything.
This
With the rest of the stuff
We've shared
Is an honest piece of myself.
Remember MUO
Remember staying back at school asking me homework
Remember me telling you that I never really do homework
Remember me emo-ing
Complaints
"Huh?"
Worrying over Australia
FrisbeepianostudiesrentasdesaGAPLUIsampat
So Kim,
don't forget.
come back n beat me in FRISBEE.
Come back with a lengzai BF haha
And don't forget to come back with a preseent for me okay?
Enjoy life there
This sounds so cliche.
Wait
Let me think of something cool.
@__@
MM..
Here goes.
Live so crazy it'd put a rockstar on edge,
Love hard 'cause it seems like the end of this age
And laugh so loud ...that we all can hear you from Malaysia.HAHA.
Goodluckhavefunremembertomissmeandihopeyoulikethepresent.=)
-HOCK EU-
Thursday, February 11, 2010
I am unstable.
I know what I need to do and I should be able to do it,
BUT my emotions get in the way so subtly that I don't notice it.
I'm shaken by the smallest things,I'm unstable.
I'm twisted around my own fingers.
RARRARRAR mati.
I gotta trust more.
Btw someone is really cute,but I am only gapping,for those who misunderstand jor.Rrrrr.I just think she is cute,takkan saya nak kao her sebelum know her.@__@.Oh and uh I cannot believe what yeng joe just told me.==there's two people saying the same thing now.getting a bit freaky.haha.First darren at italiannies,then yeng joe at kanna.Can't be conincidence that a few days in a row i keep hearing the same thing,esp at THIS TIME.LOL.Wah don't kill me if anyone who reads this understands.
And hey did you guys notice a trend?Malaysians like to hear LAST YEAR'S hits.We update our songs every 4-5 months,so when people start hearing fireflies,we're just getting into I do not hook up by dunno which singer I forgot.Malaysians also like to err..do last year's stuff.haha.For example lerh,I'm learning driving and doing all the physical training that I was supposed to do last year NOW.and malaysians...malaysians......Conclusion-Malaysians PROCRASTINATE super much.sounds old ad.But i'm just saying it,becauuseee...NOTES DEADLINE IS TOMORROW AND ME AND YENG JOE ARE JUST GONNA START RIGHT ABOUT NOW!oh wait yengjoe is teaching jadi later.@__@wish me luck ba haha.
I know what I need to do and I should be able to do it,
BUT my emotions get in the way so subtly that I don't notice it.
I'm shaken by the smallest things,I'm unstable.
I'm twisted around my own fingers.
RARRARRAR mati.
I gotta trust more.
Btw someone is really cute,but I am only gapping,for those who misunderstand jor.Rrrrr.I just think she is cute,takkan saya nak kao her sebelum know her.@__@.Oh and uh I cannot believe what yeng joe just told me.==there's two people saying the same thing now.getting a bit freaky.haha.First darren at italiannies,then yeng joe at kanna.Can't be conincidence that a few days in a row i keep hearing the same thing,esp at THIS TIME.LOL.Wah don't kill me if anyone who reads this understands.
And hey did you guys notice a trend?Malaysians like to hear LAST YEAR'S hits.We update our songs every 4-5 months,so when people start hearing fireflies,we're just getting into I do not hook up by dunno which singer I forgot.Malaysians also like to err..do last year's stuff.haha.For example lerh,I'm learning driving and doing all the physical training that I was supposed to do last year NOW.and malaysians...malaysians......Conclusion-Malaysians PROCRASTINATE super much.sounds old ad.But i'm just saying it,becauuseee...NOTES DEADLINE IS TOMORROW AND ME AND YENG JOE ARE JUST GONNA START RIGHT ABOUT NOW!oh wait yengjoe is teaching jadi later.@__@wish me luck ba haha.
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